Apologies that might never be heard.
These are my sincere apologies that have been on my mind. Last night as I was laying in bed, I found myself unable to fall asleep because I couldn’t shake off these thoughts. I felt the need for them to be heard, somehow.
Looking back, I see more clearly than ever the things I did wrong.
This is the most important thing…
I’m sorry that I was so insensitive when you were going through a really rough patch in your life. I guess I was so focused on my own feelings and circumstances that I failed to understand the pain and loss you were going through.
Also…
I’m sorry I didn’t show appreciation for the little things you tried to do to make me happy. The truth is, I did notice every little thing. I’m just really good at not showing it.
I’m sorry for the little things I did that hurt you. Sometimes I lose my sense of priorities.
I’m sorry I was so harsh on you for the things you did when they didn’t go with my ideals. You didn’t deserve to be punished like that.
I’m sorry if I made you feel like the complete bad guy, because the truth is, my heart wasn’t always in the right place either.
Lastly, I’m sorry I didn’t try harder either. It wasn’t all on you.
I’m not asking for forgiveness because I don’t think it is necessary. And I would tell you this directly, but I don’t think that’s an option right now. But for now, if you do ever see this, I just hope it brings you some sense of comfort. If none of this matters, well, then nothing changes.
